🎧 homophonic | pcs | yukichi (fukuzawa)

[silicone]

There's no need to fear the past. The past is just a memory.

(in retrospect i regret my choice of filter name)

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[allmenare]

And what does it tell you?

[He reaches up with a hand to tuck Eiden's hair behind his ear.]

[silicone]

[ the fingertips pushing his hair back earn a small laugh. it tickles just a little. ]

It tells me that you're here. That you're alive.

[ very quietly: ]

That something excited you a second ago.

[allmenare]

I suppose you could say it was that.

[Eiden seems to blur the line between surprise and excitement for him these days.]

[silicone]

[ he raises a brow ]

Suppose? Then... tell me what it was.

[ softer, a beat, don't look away don't look away don't: ]

All I wanted was to try and memorize the beating.

[allmenare]

[He fucking looks away, his heart racing now.]

Is that so?

[silicone]

[ bruh! eiden just laughs a little more, ducking his head. ]

Yeah. It's a pretty important sound to me.

[allmenare]

Then take your time and memorize it.

[He really can't say no to Eiden anymore, it's funny.]

[silicone]

Would you wanna do the same?

[allmenare]

That might be harder to do with our height difference.

[silicone]

I... could always lay down?

[allmenare]

There's another way.

[He'll move to take Eiden's hand in his, pressing his fingers against Eiden's wrist. He can feel the heartbeat easily this way.]

[silicone]

[ not at all what he expected, but also... exactly what he wants. he flushes a little at the ears, and it bleeds down to his face. his pulse is fluttering within seconds, fingers lax as he tries to steady himself. ]

It's the next best thing... right?

... I won't forget what it feels like.

[allmenare]

It will work for now.

[A steady, strong pulse...proof that Eiden is still alive.]

I won't either.

[silicone]

[ eiden is pretty sure he'd never be good enough to be tethered to fukuzawa in such a way. so he enjoys this for now, imprints the beat of his steady heart in his muscle memory, soft taps with his fingertips. his own pulse evens out eventually, settling into something steady and soft. ]

Yukichi...?

[allmenare]

[He looks up to Eiden, curious.]

Yes?

[silicone]

[ he huffs and just drops his head onto his shoulder. ]

Mmm, I just... wish I could just feel you the way I could the other clan members back home... when we get back home.

[ he slides an arm around him into a hug, not pulling his wrist away unless fukuzawa chooses to. home... it seems so far away. completely different places. ]

But that's probably not the way it works, so. This is just gonna have to be good enough for me.

[allmenare]

No, probably not. We'll each have to go back to our own worlds.

[He feels a bit sad, but that's how it is. Eiden has duties in his world, and Fukuzawa has duties in his. Neither of them can give up on their people. It means an eventual parting, but that's not for a while yet and he just wants to make Eiden feel appreciated.]

[silicone]

[ he remembers the kind of trouble fukuzawa is in... he just makes this exact face. ]

What will you do? When you get back.

[allmenare]

Save my people, and the rest of the world. Me reviving might be the thing needed to save everyone, Gen'ichirou wouldn't see it coming.

[silicone]

[ nodnod... a pause and then: ]

Will you tell me more about Gen'ichirou...?

[allmenare]

He's...he used to be a good man. We grew up together and have been inseparable since we were fifteen. But when he went to war, something changed in him. He began to see the world that allowed so much death as evil, and decided he wanted to do away with it.

[silicone]

... I'm sorry.

[ genuine. eiden just shakes his head. ]

Did you go to war together...?

[allmenare]

Not exactly. He went to the front lines and fought the most brutal battles of the war. I was further back, assisting in other ways.

[Assassinating pro-war targets. But Eiden can find that out tomorrow.]

But he took that refusal to go to the front lines with him as a personal slight, and he's held a grudge all this time.

[silicone]

So you refused to fight in the frontlines... and he's mad at you for it now?

[ he frowns, just trying to parse it out because why would you ever want you friend in the most dangerous part of a war? sure, you'd want to fight alongside them, but eiden knows what it's like to be pushed to the back forcibly when he wants to be at the front.

not comparable to a war, but he gets it. he's been in battle and it hasn't been pretty. ]

... What will you do...? Do you think you'd ever be able to convince him otherwise...?

[allmenare]

I don't think so. When I tried to talk it out with him he killed me. I think the only way to stop him is to strike him dead. He's too bitter and resentful to listen to reason.

He wants to destroy the world, Eiden. I can't let him do that.