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🎧 homophonic | pcs | yukichi (fukuzawa)
There's no need to fear the past. The past is just a memory.
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(in retrospect i regret my choice of filter name)
(in retrospect i regret my choice of filter name)
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[He sees that scar, and he feels his chest tighten.]
The smell's my fault, I thought he might be hungry.
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Thanks... seems like he really liked it... [ a pause ] Sit with me?
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[There are a million things he wants to say right now, but he'll just go sit next to Eiden wordlessly. He's never been the best at talking, it's probably best he stays silent anyway.]
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you can't expect him to sit in the silence for long. he just nudges him after a bit, glancing at him. ]
You're thinking so loudly. What's on your mind...?
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Far too much. That trial triggered something inside of me I didn't know bothered me.
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What happened...?
[ eiden reaches out with his hand, makes a small gimme motions. gib paw. there's genuine, quiet concern in his eyes. ]
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He'll also give up his hand for holding.]
I told you about abilities before, yes?
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[ he squeezes his hand and just kind of shifts onto his side so he can get comfy. ]
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There's an ability in my world that can alter the future by rewriting the past. There's rules to how it can be used, but the right changes at the right points in history can have long-lasting effects.
This ability was used to make several members of the Agency into wanted murderers. In the original timeline, they did not murder anyone, a serial killer did. But in the altered timeline made by this ability, they killed hostages.
As the head of the Agency, I was arrested and interrogated. But the other members have been on the run for about a month now.
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[ he just listens to this, squeezing. it's hard to imagine the scope of such an ability, having that kind of power. it's... overwhelming to even consider. the damage is clearly deep, something that fukuzawa isn't willing to part with. ]
Who the hell... I... that's terrible. Is that... the last thing that happened to you? Before all of this?
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There is a lot more to the story, but ultimately I was killed because of this change in the timeline. And someone I had cared for deeply in the past was the one to cut me down.
But after all of that, I suppose I'm still a bit sensitive to my people being framed.
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[ his voice trails off for a moment and he glances downwards at their hands joined. he shifts his fingers, just so maybe he can slide them between his own. ]
... Yukichi...
[ it doesn't make it right or fair, but who said the game was fair, and who said any of this was right? eiden is mad, he's mad at a lot of people, but the anger has diffused somewhat with at least the finality of the act. and here in the grass, being told something like this... ]
I'm sorry. I'm sorry that someone you trusted so much...
[ he just trails off, eyes shifting away. god it's just. a lot. it sucks. everything sucks. ]
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[But this is why he doesn't open up his heart often. If he had a nickel for every time he fought a former partner to the death he would have two nickels, which isn't a lot but it's really weird it happened twice.]
I don't know if it's right. I don't know for certain that Simon is innocent. But when I put my trust into someone, I don't revoke it lightly. And I trust him to tell me the truth, if he did kill.
[But he hasn't yet, so.]
But I can't just give up on him because things look bad. He's skittish about people, I get the feeling he's been betrayed before. I'm not going to do that to him.
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Simon texted me... he was pretty upset. Said he felt really guilty about the whole thing.
He's worried that it's painted a target on the team. [ it has. that's it. ] If you need to... I wouldn't be upset if you used that compulsion thing to keep your team safe next week, okay? Especially coming hot of that last trial...
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[And onto him.]
But it can only affect one person.
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he just. closes his eyes instead. because if he thinks about it anymore, he's going to explode. he just breathes. deep. ]
Mm... of course.
[ reaches up to tug softly on whatever part of his outfit is closest. haori. kimono. etc. ]
Lay down with me, it hurts my eyeballs to have to keep looking up. [ he ragdolled like a bethesda character in the vroom room during the snake attack. his head hurts. with a little tug to the corner of his mouth. ] Won't do anything untoward. Promise.
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[He knows Eiden is Like This but he also has eyes. Yakumo was so important to him, and Fukuzawa doesn't even expect a playful front after all of that.
Which is why he'll settle down on the ground and then life his arm up, offering space for Eiden to get closer if he wants. No Untoward meanings, he just wants to help Eiden feel safer.]
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[ smiling at him anyways, even if it's. sad. still, the arm lifts and he instantly shuffles closer. it's true, his head hurts, he's gotten the damage healed, but he's still kind of rattled. he shifts until he can bury his nose into his shoulder, breathing in deeply.
he slings his arm around him too, nestling in comfortably. ]
This is good. I like this.
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[Once Eiden is situated, Fukuzawa will fold his arm over Eiden's back, holding him there. It's a loose hold so Eiden can pull away if he wants, but it's his way of saying 'I'm here.']
I don't think I've laid down with anyone since Ranpo was younger. He used to have nightmares occasionally and would come hide in my bed. But he outgrew that a long time ago, even before we took in Yosano.
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That's sweet... poor kid. I think I said this before but, the ones you take in are really, really lucky.
[ shifting a little and letting his hand walk up his side to just pass slowly over his back. ] Who's Yosano?
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[They keep his heart out of the darkness and his mind focused on saving others. He probably wouldn't be alive without them.]
Yosano was the second member of the Agency. She's Ranpo's age, so she was about 15 when we took her in.
[A pause.]
...she has the ability to heal any wound, so long as the person is still alive. And someone else was trying to use her for her ability despite how clearly she was hurting inside from it. Ranpo and I didn't agree with that, so we stole her away from the situation.
When she realized we wanted her to stay with us for her kindness, not her ability, she readily agreed. She's now the company doctor, she takes care of our physicals, vaccinations, and those sorts of things. She does use her ability sometimes, but we never ask for it. We're happy to have her as a doctor, not a healer.
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That's amazing... it sounds like you're just what the other needed. Right place, right time. Glad she gets to be with you guys instead of that shitty place.
[ beaming at him just a bit more ] You have a big heart, Yukichi... you're just very careful about who is let inside.
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[He never would have been able to open his heart up if Eiden didn't open his first.]
It's dangerous though. You have to be careful who you let in, or else you'll end up getting hurt in the end.
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[ he admits it, quiet, reluctant. the grass is warm and soft and he's trailing his nose gently up fukuzawa's pulse with a soft chuckle. ]
It's dangerous to be alone too... so I'm glad that you let me in.
[ he trails off, lifting his hand to cup the side of fukuzawa's jaw and just. hold his face gently. ]
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We can rest out here if you're tired.
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