[ throws dart we're at the museum and eiden is actually pretty happy to be here. he's currently walking around some old pottery curiously, enjoying the reliefs along the side kind of peacefully. his hands are crossed behind his back while he hangs out in his lil ikea outfit. it was time to change.
hi, eiden...i understand if you and your team would rather be left alone today. but it didn't feel right not to check in on you after everything. for what it's worth, i am so sorry about yakumo. i know it won't change anything but...know that i'm here if you need to vent.
hey monika we're all pretty upset the choice was not one everyone wanted to make so we're kind of pushing through it it doesn't change anything, but i still appreciate it at least like saying sorry wont make him reappear but. i know you guys are suffering too i'm sorry lambda's killer got away this place blows
this place is awful. it keeps forcing us to make these terrible choices to hurt each other over and over again... to be honest, we're really frustrated because too we're sure we were on the right track earlier in the day. but then a lot of people suddenly swerved out of pity or something? and it didn't make any sense!!! it's not fair. i wish i pushed harder to sway everyone's vote...
i feel like shit for making gyuhyuk break down in front of everyone he told us he'd cooperate more now that we know the story but i think people were going to vote for someone who didn't want to strip over where the evidence was... i feel like we were on the right track too and then everyone just sort of fell on us in a landslide.
tbh idk how i'm going to show my face on monday monika haha
you guys are a great team... i care a lot about zuki and val. you too, even though i know we haven't talked much
Yeah, every time I see one of these special food items on the menu I want to get one, but at the same time is it really worth it to pay five bucks just to kabedon someone?
[ why pay for the coercion? do it yourself, you coward (no) ]
I'm a little curious, too. But I don't think I'm curious enough to waste $5 just to embarrass myself for the sake of sating my curiosity...
[anyway!! oink oink. a pig noise suddenly comes out of nowhere, running past them, and—
Classes have ended for the day. You're getting your notes ready for today's club activities in the middle of the room your school has allowed you to reserve for the Literature Club, while yourdearfriends and your newest club member all shuffle off into separate corners to indulge in their favorite book, read manga, or simply just vibe.
Despite knowing now that none of this is real, something about the sight still makes you happy. A moment of comforting normalcy in a world that has otherwise lost all meaning.
But, suddenly, you
are put to sleep.
Or, at least, that's what it feels like. You can't move. You can't talk. You can't scream. You're left with nothing but your own panicked, terrified thoughts for several agonizing seconds — before your mind begins to fill with incoherent, jumbled patterns.
Rapid flashes of static and color dance across your vision. Closely. In the distance. Everywhere yet nowhere at all. Someone is screaming. A singular something. A plural someone. You cannot tell anymore. You cannot even say where you end and the void begins. You are completely and utterly incapable of forming your own thoughts at this point.
You are endlessly hammered by the flashing lights and the piercing screams. They dig into your skull and scoop out your soft innards. Perhaps this is all there is. All there ever was. All there ever will be.
Then you find yourself back in your own body while the people around you fail to notice that, for however long that truly lasted, the world simply ceased to exist.]
[ wow this sure is a lot, he's about to respond to the remark with "let's do it" but suddenly he feels like he's in some sort of hellscape fever dream, worse than the one that's been plaguing all of them for weeks. it's so much.
he can't even think about the food anymore, he just looks at her with his brow furrowed, and he offers his hands quietly out to her. ]
Monika?
[ soft, worried. it's hard to parse that particular memory, it's jagged and terrifying. ]
What happened to you...? [ and then a moment later, shaking his head ] ... It's okay actually, if it's too hard to talk about. I just. That's a lot.
she's a little dazed when the memory ends, her face ashen — but she seems to snap out of it when he offers his hand.]
I... [she takes his hand, a little shaky.] I'm sorry. I was really hoping I didn't have to experience that again, and now I pulled you into it... ahaha...
I don't mind talking about it, it's... just hard to explain.
... It won't make me feel better or worse, to be honest.
[she's just tired now. but she tries to smile a little, because she does appreciate his attempt at being comforting.]
Like I said, it's hard to explain. But if I had to put it into words, though it's a little inaccurate... You could say god pressed the off button on the universe, just for a moment, and I'm the only one who noticed.
[ the void is so stinky and bad right now like this entire day sucked. ]
... I think he'd be okay knowing we managed to find something. I have so many questions about the bullets, how they ended up like that. I don't really know anything about guns...
Maybe. The holes were close together, all aimed around his heart...
But they looked torn through, which makes me wonder if it was a psych or some kind... not fast enough to be a gun... might make tearing through skin messier?
Do you remember if the bullets looked intact? I mean, I don't know a lot about guns. But bullets kind of explode or something when they're fired, right?
[... she thinks.]
I wonder if drift aura could be used to pull things through someone like that. I've never tried using it that way, but...
a few skeletons attacked us, but we made it out okay. no arrows or bullets like some of the other groups. speaking of which, are you okay??? setsu said something really scary about a horse with a gun!
good...just let me know if you decide you need more help, okay? they're going to be okay, i think. i mean, alex is with her team so i don't really know i guess. and mizuki said something really scary earlier. but it's nothing worse than what we usually deal with...
[ changes this because i forgot about the traumatizing execution in my dissociative state. eiden will bring along a little to-go container of some hot chocolate and once they're suitably dressed up for the snow will take her out to just have a nice day by the frozen pond. they can skate if they want, or they can just enjoy the other people skating and people watch. ]
Wow, this place looks amazing... it's almost too perfect, like looking in a snowglobe.
[the rent-a-skate elf is being totally shady, so monika is more than happy to enjoy watching other people try and maybe fail to win the gold medal. we are not falling through the lake today! that can wait until wednesday.]
I know, right? It's a really nice change of pace from last week.
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w0, friday mingly
Yeah, it's... kind of a shock. How're you holding up? I noticed the... uh... piano? Earlier?
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[ a very weak laugh follows this..... help us please. ]
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I'd consider it if I thought I could get something out of it. Twenty dollars isn't a lot of money for the week.
w1, monday
when he hears footsteps, he looks up and grins. ]
What do you think of the museum?
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[She's been walking around, slowing down every now and then to take a look at the exhibits that catch her attention.]
But I've never visited one before. So it's not like I have a lot to compare it to.
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[ tilting his head. he'll settle in beside her to have a look at one of the exhibits she might be looking at. ]
It's been a long time since I've been to one... There's so much, you could spend the whole day in places like this.
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[Something something about small towns.]
Hmm, then it sounds like it's a nice spot for a date. [a beat.] Ahaha, as if. Nobody has the time for that right now, anyway...
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There's a lot of time to kill. Maybe some people should, just for fun. Like a no commitment thing, just enjoy the sights, I don't know.
[ it's red string week, eiden. ppl are already doing that. ]
Otherwise it just feels like we're always waiting for something shitty to happen. Can't live like that.
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[she trails off, before she laughs.]
You're totally right, though. Even if things are pretty dire right now, we should still try to enjoy ourselves...
w3, tuesday
No weird rules today I think... wanna go have some fun?
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Ehehe... Sure! What do you have in mind, Eiden?
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How about we go see a movie?
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Do you recognize any of the titles? To be honest, I think most of them came out when I was, like... one.
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[ he glances at the list ]
Maybe we start by genre? Adventure? Romance? Horror?
[ squint ] Cartoon?
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... To be honest, I wouldn't mind watching something lighthearted today.
[w2 weekend was... bad.]
week three, sunday.
for what it's worth, i am so sorry about yakumo. i know it won't change anything but...know that i'm here if you need to vent.
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hey monika
we're all pretty upset the choice was not one everyone wanted to make
so we're kind of pushing through it
it doesn't change anything, but i still appreciate it at least
like saying sorry wont make him reappear but.
i know you guys are suffering too
i'm sorry lambda's killer got away
this place blows
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to be honest, we're really frustrated because too we're sure we were on the right track earlier in the day.
but then a lot of people suddenly swerved out of pity or something? and it didn't make any sense!!!
it's not fair. i wish i pushed harder to sway everyone's vote...
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he told us he'd cooperate more
now that we know the story
but i think people were going to vote for someone who didn't want to strip
over where the evidence was... i feel like we were on the right track too
and then everyone just sort of fell on us in a landslide.
tbh idk how i'm going to show my face on monday monika haha
you guys are a great team... i care a lot about zuki and val. you too, even though i know we haven't talked much
week four, monday.
... I'm still not buying the special burger.
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[ why pay for the coercion? do it yourself, you coward (no) ]
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[kabedon someone all by yourself, you cowards.]
What do you think is the effect for this one?
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Maybe they make you wanna do a stupid dance or something. I feel like we haven't had anything like that yet.
I'm kinda curious...
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I'm a little curious, too. But I don't think I'm curious enough to waste $5 just to embarrass myself for the sake of sating my curiosity...
[anyway!! oink oink. a pig noise suddenly comes out of nowhere, running past them, and—
Despite knowing now that none of this is real, something about the sight still makes you happy. A moment of comforting normalcy in a world that has otherwise lost all meaning.
But, suddenly, you
are put to sleep.
Or, at least, that's what it feels like. You can't move. You can't talk. You can't scream. You're left with nothing but your own panicked, terrified thoughts for several agonizing seconds — before your mind begins to fill with incoherent, jumbled patterns.
Rapid flashes of static and color dance across your vision. Closely. In the distance. Everywhere yet nowhere at all. Someone is screaming. A singular something. A plural someone. You cannot tell anymore. You cannot even say where you end and the void begins. You are completely and utterly incapable of forming your own thoughts at this point.
You are endlessly hammered by the flashing lights and the piercing screams. They dig into your skull and scoop out your soft innards. Perhaps this is all there is. All there ever was. All there ever will be.
The world has ended. There is nothing outside of this singular moment in time that seems to stretch on for eternity. You have no idea if it's been seconds, minutes, hours — or even years. All you know is that you are here and there is no escape and you are dying and you are dead and you will rot here forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever anï¯ĠŨŒŐĬÃ¥ÙİíıÉ®²óŁØùċĒĀºÆ»ÑĮäĄŧŲÛ½Äà¡öåĹŦĕ©ŹãĻ ¾ûĦàŤćěijĤŻċţùŦĪì ´ĴÈēÖŘőžŰŌŷėŝĨ¹ÝķÞâõņªäġŃèĽÙáųŠĆ
Then you find yourself back in your own body while the people around you fail to notice that, for however long that truly lasted, the world simply ceased to exist.]
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he can't even think about the food anymore, he just looks at her with his brow furrowed, and he offers his hands quietly out to her. ]
Monika?
[ soft, worried. it's hard to parse that particular memory, it's jagged and terrifying. ]
What happened to you...? [ and then a moment later, shaking his head ] ... It's okay actually, if it's too hard to talk about. I just. That's a lot.
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she's a little dazed when the memory ends, her face ashen — but she seems to snap out of it when he offers his hand.]
I... [she takes his hand, a little shaky.] I'm sorry. I was really hoping I didn't have to experience that again, and now I pulled you into it... ahaha...
I don't mind talking about it, it's... just hard to explain.
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I know how that feels... things being hard to explain.
Only if it'd maybe make you feel better? ... I wouldn't mind trying to understand... it felt terrible... unlike anything I've ever felt before.
[ offering her a very little smile for encouragement. ]
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[she's just tired now. but she tries to smile a little, because she does appreciate his attempt at being comforting.]
Like I said, it's hard to explain. But if I had to put it into words, though it's a little inaccurate... You could say god pressed the off button on the universe, just for a moment, and I'm the only one who noticed.
week four, saturday.
... I'm sorry we didn't figure out who erased Shen Qingqiu.
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... I think he'd be okay knowing we managed to find something. I have so many questions about the bullets, how they ended up like that. I don't really know anything about guns...
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But they looked torn through, which makes me wonder if it was a psych or some kind... not fast enough to be a gun... might make tearing through skin messier?
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[... she thinks.]
I wonder if drift aura could be used to pull things through someone like that. I've never tried using it that way, but...
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Do you think psychokinesis could do that too...?
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w5, wednesday after mini-event!
how was your adventure? you okay? did you get hurt or did you guys make it out in decent shape?
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speaking of which, are you okay??? setsu said something really scary about a horse with a gun!
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yeah the horse had a gun and shot me and gyuhyuk
and then it kidnapped him? honestly i'm really starting to question any and all equine motives at this point.
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horse kidnapped him?????????
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so im really confused
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you know what? i don't know why i bother to question anything that happens on these missions.
week five, thursday.
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kyoko took care of my chest
and the bites will heal on their own
how is alex???????
and val and zuki???
[ monika ur team and ur gf (???) ]
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good...just let me know if you decide you need more help, okay?
they're going to be okay, i think.
i mean, alex is with her team so i don't really know i guess.
and mizuki said something really scary earlier.
but it's nothing worse than what we usually deal with...
w6, monday
Wow, this place looks amazing... it's almost too perfect, like looking in a snowglobe.
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I know, right? It's a really nice change of pace from last week.