🎧 homophonic | pcs | yukichi (fukuzawa)

[silicone]

There's no need to fear the past. The past is just a memory.

(in retrospect i regret my choice of filter name)

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[allmenare]

I have my ways. It can only be used once though, so we have to make it count.

[silicone]

Once... [ he nods softly. ] Then I'd have to be extra sure.

For now, I want you to save it unless you really, truly need it. [ he doesn't want to imagine a world where maybe he fucked up and fukuzawa could have perhaps saved someone else, saved himself... something... ] I can't be sure right now if I can find out who the person is, but.

[ and this time he turns to face him. his eyes are just. so wet. and red. he's been crying on and off and it shows. ] If I can come back to you 100% certain... then we can use it.

[allmenare]

Of course. I'll hold onto it for now, until we're sure. But if you check a team with four people left and see them in first place, tell me immediately.

[Because there's only one way that could have happened.

But oh, these tears. He pulls up the sleeve of his kimono over his hand and tries to wipe some of the wetness away.]

[silicone]

[ he allows this, but god he looks... kind of frustrated and upset still. ]

There was proof that we didn't do it. We all... every one of us... I...

[ he shakes a little. ]

I don't care what anyone says. Gyuhyuk... there's more to him than anyone knows but instead they just called out his belligerence over everything else instead of trying to fucking see with their goddamn eyes...

Everything was right fucking there...

[allmenare]

...it was.

I still don't know why my team wasn't voted out.

[Not that they did any murder either, but that fucking monkey.]

[silicone]

Because they were climbing all over each other to sacrifice themselves for one another.

Who would anyone rather vote for... than a guy who's freaking out and looking guilty because of his trauma.

Everyone believed it was us. [ unspoken, even if fukuzawa says he trusts him: even you? ]

[allmenare]

[He doesn't know what to say here, so he falls silent.

But he'll keep holding onto Eiden's hand for as long as he needs.]

[silicone]

[ he will hold onto it tightly for a long while before he will eventually let go and slowly start to get to his feet. ]

... I have to go. I...

[ he gives him a very small smile, but his lip just tremble a little. ]

I should go spend time with my team... I... thank you for sitting with me a while... and listening to me.

[allmenare]

[He's a little reluctant to let go, but he understands.]

Whatever you need, I'm here for you. You'll know where to find me.

[silicone]

[ he nods, and before stepping too far, just leans in very carefully and smoothes some of his hair back from his forehead to just.

kiss right there at the crown of his head. ]

I know...

I'll see you tomorrow.

[allmenare]

[He'll tip his head forward a bit so Eiden can do that, he has rights.]

I'll be there for you, and for the rest of them too.

[He wants to be up on that stage, giving his life to protect others from a horrific injustice. But failing that, he can support Hot Mess as best as he can.]