🎧 homophonic | pcs | yukichi (fukuzawa)

[silicone]

There's no need to fear the past. The past is just a memory.

(in retrospect i regret my choice of filter name)

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[allmenare]

My left fist matches my right now.

[silicone]

[ screams into a pillow. ]

you get it taken care of yet?

[ frowns. ]

[allmenare]

I cleaned it up.

[silicone]

good



would you want some company at all?

[allmenare]

Sure.

Usual spot?

[silicone]

sounds good.

see you in a few.

[ bc he is there rocking on his heels and waiting, hands in his pockets. ]

[allmenare]

[He's here! And he'll walk right over to where Eiden is waiting.]

You haven't been here long, have you?

[silicone]

Nope. You're just in time.

[ he does automatically take his arm though. he's buzzing emotionally, anxious and upset, but atop it all, he stays as calm as he can. ]

[allmenare]

[It's fine, he has rights. Instead of walking around though, he'll take Eiden to a quieter part of the park off of the path.]

Let's sit for a bit?

[silicone]

[ just ??? but also content vibes, so he nods a bit as he looks for a nice patch of grass off the path where moonlight can cut through just a bit. ]

Here's nice...

[ fukuzawa said sit, but eiden is truly just going full boneless and flops back completely. ]

[allmenare]

[Ope there he go. Fukuzawa will indeed sit down next to Eiden though. He sits on his knees btw, always a proper kind of guy.]

Tired?

[silicone]

[ so proper... eiden notices this and smiles a little. ]

Yeah, but not sleepy... just. Exhausted... [ laughing a little, uneasy. looking up at him with a small smile. ]

[allmenare]

[Even after all of that, he can still smile. How admirable.]

It has been a long day.

[He reaches over to gently slide Eiden's bangs out of his face so he can see better.]

I'm surprised you agreed to meet out here.

[silicone]

[ oh! that

that surprises him, but not in a way they makes him jerk away. instead his eyes just widen a little before he closes his eyes. that feels good, it's palpable how it shifts his unease into safety. ]

Why?

[ his fingertips just reach to gently toy with a bit of fabric at fukuzawa's sleeve briefly. ]

[allmenare]

If you are exhausted, then staying at your warehouse and sleeping might be a more tempting choice. And yet here you are.

[Instead of returning his hand to his lap, he lets it linger there, holding back a bit of Eiden's hair.]

[silicone]

[ only happy vibes here. eyes closed, he chuckles. ]

Yeah, but I'd never pass up a chance to hang out with you... and it's good to check on you in person.

I have plenty of time to be in the warehouse... [ he has done his due diligence and loved his hot mess after such a shitty execution its facts. ] I like the trees out here better...

[allmenare]

Well, here I am.

[And here is nature too.]

Is it what you hoped to see?

[silicone]

Yeah. It is actually.

You, in the flesh, safe and sound.

[ not erased. ]

That's how I like it.

[allmenare]

Glad I could provide that then.

[He moves his hand to try and gently grasp one of Eiden's.]

[silicone]

[ he takes his, slowly sitting up and refusing to let go of it, though his touch is gentle as he turns it over in his hands. ]

... Can I help you at all?

I could feel it... [ our emotionshares... ]

[allmenare]

[It's a hand! The knuckles are bruised and have a couple splits on them, but they're not bleeding. His fingertips are calloused, as is his palm, though not quite to the extent as those fingers. This is the hand of someone who has worked hard every day of his life.]

I'm sure you could. And you can still feel 'that', can't you?

[It's quieter now, it always gets quieter around Eiden. But the anxiety that twists his stomach into knots is always there.]

[silicone]

... Yeah...

[ he scoots just a little closer now. ]

Are you afraid, Yukichi? A little bit?

[allmenare]

[He sounds a little uncomfortable as he speaks.]

I don't...like...people. Strangers. Around me. I'm too aware of everyone nearby and what ways they could attack me and the best way to prepare myself for that. It's better if I do what I need to do and then just leave.

It's different if it's someone I know and trust, but most of the time I have to suppress those feelings to be around others.

[silicone]

[ fukuzawa has anxiety and it's... kind of eye-opening. eiden thinks about one of their first conversations and finds his heart going softer still. damn. ]

Now that sounds exhausting.

[ to hide such a part of yourself and stifle that every day with such a powerful facade of competence... he laces their fingers together with care to avoid hurting his knuckles, lifting said hand to look at it more. ]

Tomorrow, I could kiss this better if you want. Give you a little strength to go into the week.

[allmenare]

It can be. Being around trusted individuals helps.

[He can be at peace with his anxieties that way, knowing that someone else is right there to cover his weak spots, to watch his back. His team, Nahida, Eiden...they all help him get through those nightmarish trials and executions in close quarters.]

...you can if you want.

[It's a little embarrassing, but Eiden has rights.]