as promised, rang releases eiden's ankle -- not very gently, but he doesn't like throw his foot on the floor. it's mostly because he's distracted at this bit of information,]
What about that clan of yours you mentioned? Are they from Earth or the other world?
They're part of the reason I don't want to leave. They're from the other world... the Klein Continent.
I don't have anyone to miss me on Earth... maybe my coworkers, but pfft. Who wants to go back to paying rent again? Not to mention the old Grand Sorcerer Huey is gone... they don't have anyone to take care of their gems...
[ he does not pull his leg back or anything his foot just falls onto the cushion of the booth. ]
But I don't know how helpful I am to them beyond that... [ he just knocks the table with his knee. ] I want to fight, I don't want to be a stupid burden.
They don't need to tell me for me to know what I am.
[ he reaches across the table for the melty milkshake and pulls it to himself.
there's shame here, inadequacy, he's trying to pull it back with just a laughβforce yourself to smile long enough and you'll do it automatically, right? ]
[rang can feel it, every one of eiden's emotions. and that should make him more sympathetic for the boy -- and yet, there is none. just the watchful silence of someone who's waiting to hear more.]
[can't believe eiden isn't mentioning the banging part,]
It doesn't sound like you're the burden you're making yourself out to be then, if you're doing something for them.
[a deal is a deal, isn't it? a contract made, even between people who are just acquaintances at best, which he doesn't think is what eiden and his clan members are,]
Especially if they've never told you that you are one.
[ if you want the banging your have to survive until memshares. eiden just looks away, his brows drawn.
he crawls under the table then, immediately, and pops up on rang's side, boxing him inβand just biting him like a feral creature on the shoulder, through fabric and all. mumbled around it: ]
Would you know what it's like to feel that useless?
there is a spike of such surprise that punches through his usual edward cullen depression when Eiden pops up, and a bigger flare when he bites down -- it's the equivalent of eiden pulling the rug out from under him, surprise freezing him in place.
there's a flicker of pain at the bite, but it's overshadowed at being so thoroughly... outfoxed....? and anyway unfortunately, the pain and bite fcking interests him, help me --
but as quickly as he goes still, he's just as quick to reach up and grip Eiden by the side of his head, fingers splayed out over his neck,]
-- Brat.
[(derogatory) (affectionate?), his thumb digs down on Eiden's pulse,]
I've never once left the people relying on me, no matter how I felt at the time.
[ his eyes well up a little while his brow knots tight against being grabbed. his pulse thrums, fast, fluttering. he could be afraid, and part of him is, but the rest is listening...
he swallows. ]
It's still hard to say goodbye to one world, even if it treated me like crap. But I know in the end, I have to. Even if it's hard... [ and his pulse beats faster: ]
I don't know why the old Grand Sorcerer disappeared... but I can't follow in his footsteps like that.
...It's hard, but it sounds like you know what to do?
[the fast beat of eiden's pulse, combined with the sheen of his eyes, it does wonders for rang's mood, not that it was low before. thinking that you're not good enough, being afraid. those are very human sentiments, rang thinks. and ones he can relate to, if he looked deep enough inside.
instead, he releases eiden's head -- then uses that hand to push him down flat on the seat of this booth that's absolutely big enough to accommodate lying down on, and before he can get up -- he just. climbs on top of him. im sorry char i mlaughing, if eiden had boxed rang in earlier, then he'll do the same -- except this time with the intention of straddling eiden in this family friendly diner,]
I have a question for you.
[pleasantly, like he's not trying to shove eiden down flat in the first place,]
eiden goes down quickly, his heart hammering. this was not where he saw this going, and he just looks up at rang in quiet confusion (it's very easy in this state, even with rang straddling him, to not be horny). anxiety swarms a little in the back of his skull like the thrumming of bees. ]
[the shadow waiters like 'we don't get paid enough for this` as rang is like finally some good fcking food re: eiden's emotions,]
Let's say that I killed you.
[his own emotions ring with amusement, even as he keeps his hand on eiden's chest,]
And that somehow, your clan members found out.
[yakumo is here, does rang know that yakumo and eiden are clan members..... maybe he's gotten the hint that they know each other, and has put two to two together considering yakumo is not human. anyway, this is a question for all of eiden's clan, not just yakumo -- this theoretical scenario that's apparently exciting to think about for rang,]
Would they mourn your death? Try to kill me in revenge? Or both?
[ there's a quiet swelling of something in his chest, and as he lays there, somewhat stunned, there's a part of him that shakes. is it fear or rage or sadness? he doesn't know. all he knows is he can wrap his hand around rang's wrist belonging to the hand on his chest and look at him with a faint smile. ]
I think both, some faster on the latter half than the others. But I don't think they'd like having to do it for a substitute [ his breathing trembles ] instead of the real Grand Sorcerer.
[ eiden closes his eyes. ]
I have a duty... of course I'll go back to them. But I can think about the only home I've ever known too... even if it wasn't always kind...
[ there's a silent pull of thanks from him. like maybe thinking about this has... freed him in some way. there's a lighter aspect to his emotions, even if they're still somewhat unhappy. ]
[to rang, it seems like a very simple situation. why cling onto a home that wasn't kind? a world that didn't treat you right? just abandon those who've abandoned you, and you'll be fine.
instead of saying that, he just frowns at the gratitude he can feel from Eiden, then presses a hand on the edge of the table to lever himself up and off of the other man. since eiden's hand is on his wrist, then that means Rang pulls him up to sitting position again,]
I've never known anyone to kill for someone they didn't care about.
[dryly, but there's a sense here that he doesn't want to push on this subject any longer. he just starts eating eiden's food ig]
[ i hate you don't fucking eat his foot. smushes his face with his new shoe but like more like pushing like stooop don't???? chew that??? it's new??? yaywon im locking you into this bullshit. he smiles shakily like haha fuck that conversation i don't want to talk about how i think i am more of a means to an end! ]
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as promised, rang releases eiden's ankle -- not very gently, but he doesn't like throw his foot on the floor. it's mostly because he's distracted at this bit of information,]
What about that clan of yours you mentioned? Are they from Earth or the other world?
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I don't have anyone to miss me on Earth... maybe my coworkers, but pfft. Who wants to go back to paying rent again? Not to mention the old Grand Sorcerer Huey is gone... they don't have anyone to take care of their gems...
[ he does not pull his leg back or anything his foot just falls onto the cushion of the booth. ]
But I don't know how helpful I am to them beyond that... [ he just knocks the table with his knee. ] I want to fight, I don't want to be a stupid burden.
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...Have they told you that? That you're a burden.
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[ he reaches across the table for the melty milkshake and pulls it to himself.
there's shame here, inadequacy, he's trying to pull it back with just a laughβforce yourself to smile long enough and you'll do it automatically, right? ]
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...What about the gems you mentioned?
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When I first met them all, their gems were so cloudy from their unregulated essence.
They'd probably go back to that if I ever left...
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It doesn't sound like you're the burden you're making yourself out to be then, if you're doing something for them.
[a deal is a deal, isn't it? a contract made, even between people who are just acquaintances at best, which he doesn't think is what eiden and his clan members are,]
Especially if they've never told you that you are one.
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he crawls under the table then, immediately, and pops up on rang's side, boxing him inβand just biting him like a feral creature on the shoulder, through fabric and all. mumbled around it: ]
Would you know what it's like to feel that useless?
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there is a spike of such surprise that punches through his usual edward cullen depression when Eiden pops up, and a bigger flare when he bites down -- it's the equivalent of eiden pulling the rug out from under him, surprise freezing him in place.
there's a flicker of pain at the bite, but it's overshadowed at being so thoroughly... outfoxed....? and anyway unfortunately, the pain and bite fcking interests him, help me --
but as quickly as he goes still, he's just as quick to reach up and grip Eiden by the side of his head, fingers splayed out over his neck,]
-- Brat.
[(derogatory) (affectionate?), his thumb digs down on Eiden's pulse,]
I've never once left the people relying on me, no matter how I felt at the time.
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he swallows. ]
It's still hard to say goodbye to one world, even if it treated me like crap. But I know in the end, I have to. Even if it's hard... [ and his pulse beats faster: ]
I don't know why the old Grand Sorcerer disappeared... but I can't follow in his footsteps like that.
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[the fast beat of eiden's pulse, combined with the sheen of his eyes, it does wonders for rang's mood, not that it was low before. thinking that you're not good enough, being afraid. those are very human sentiments, rang thinks. and ones he can relate to, if he looked deep enough inside.
instead, he releases eiden's head -- then uses that hand to push him down flat on the seat of this booth that's absolutely big enough to accommodate lying down on, and before he can get up -- he just. climbs on top of him. im sorry char i mlaughing, if eiden had boxed rang in earlier, then he'll do the same -- except this time with the intention of straddling eiden in this family friendly diner,]
I have a question for you.
[pleasantly, like he's not trying to shove eiden down flat in the first place,]
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but also he knows he earned this.
eiden goes down quickly, his heart hammering. this was not where he saw this going, and he just looks up at rang in quiet confusion (it's very easy in this state, even with rang straddling him, to not be horny). anxiety swarms a little in the back of his skull like the thrumming of bees. ]
I...
Yeah... go ahead. Ask.
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Let's say that I killed you.
[his own emotions ring with amusement, even as he keeps his hand on eiden's chest,]
And that somehow, your clan members found out.
[yakumo is here, does rang know that yakumo and eiden are clan members..... maybe he's gotten the hint that they know each other, and has put two to two together considering yakumo is not human. anyway, this is a question for all of eiden's clan, not just yakumo -- this theoretical scenario that's apparently exciting to think about for rang,]
Would they mourn your death? Try to kill me in revenge? Or both?
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I...
[ there's a quiet swelling of something in his chest, and as he lays there, somewhat stunned, there's a part of him that shakes. is it fear or rage or sadness? he doesn't know. all he knows is he can wrap his hand around rang's wrist belonging to the hand on his chest and look at him with a faint smile. ]
I think both, some faster on the latter half than the others. But I don't think they'd like having to do it for a substitute [ his breathing trembles ] instead of the real Grand Sorcerer.
[ eiden closes his eyes. ]
I have a duty... of course I'll go back to them. But I can think about the only home I've ever known too... even if it wasn't always kind...
[ there's a silent pull of thanks from him. like maybe thinking about this has... freed him in some way. there's a lighter aspect to his emotions, even if they're still somewhat unhappy. ]
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instead of saying that, he just frowns at the gratitude he can feel from Eiden, then presses a hand on the edge of the table to lever himself up and off of the other man. since eiden's hand is on his wrist, then that means Rang pulls him up to sitting position again,]
I've never known anyone to kill for someone they didn't care about.
[dryly, but there's a sense here that he doesn't want to push on this subject any longer. he just starts eating eiden's food ig]
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Why the hell are foxes so weird!
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and then drops eiden's feet -- both of them,]
You bit me first?
[because of the RULE]