And... yeah, it's pretty much... people already went insane all the time, man, I don't know how much worse it'd be if they remembered all their previous deaths.
Yeah, the three of us remembering was like... I guess good, but also awful.
We at least could commiserate, y'know.
[ rubbing his hand slowly. ]
But the fact that some of those things... they make you outright want to hurt people. They get into your head... Netzach, that place is a shitshow... [ not said in a way that implies he doesn't know, ratherβjust astonished, and tired... really tired. ]
That's just-- how things were there. What you saw... it doesn't sound like it's out of the ordinary, for what I know, except for the fact that you remembered going through all of it.
...yeah. That's... more or less why I was like that, back then. You stay there long enough and it just feels hopeless, you know? There was no point in trying to save anyone. If they are saved, they're just going to die later, and at some point you're going to do it all over again.
It's easy to get worn down and start thinking that way.
[ he looks down for a moment because yeah, he had that feeling. and it's still seeping deep inside of him now. he just quietly grabs onto the necklace, feeling the edges of the teardrop just dig in a bit more. ]
Yeah... towards the end... I met someone else just like that...
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[ nghh ]
We kept... looping... and dying and looping... over and over again.
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[THAT'S EVEN WORSE. fuck.]
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[ yeah. ]
Alex told us that her Sephirah killed her when she said that she remembered.
I lost track of how many times we tried to finish working with each of the Abnormalities.
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[yeah he... he knows how malkuth used to be.]
You shouldn't have remembered. Usually we were the only ones who did.
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[ he rubs his head a little bit. ]
I can definitely see why you wouldn't want to remember dying to... any of that.
[ the hairs on his good arm do be prickling. eugh. goosebumps. ]
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[his old self, though? nah. not great.]
And... yeah, it's pretty much... people already went insane all the time, man, I don't know how much worse it'd be if they remembered all their previous deaths.
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We at least could commiserate, y'know.
[ rubbing his hand slowly. ]
But the fact that some of those things... they make you outright want to hurt people. They get into your head... Netzach, that place is a shitshow... [ not said in a way that implies he doesn't know, ratherβjust astonished, and tired... really tired. ]
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They come from humans, so it's not so surprising that they reflect parts of humanity.
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[ his voice shrinks a little bit, and he closes his eyes for a second because wow he's. a little overwhelmed. ]
That makes sense... considering some of the things we saw.
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[ he kind of just shudders inwardly. because that sucked. ]
It's the sort of place that really makes you feel helpless. The other employees there... it just felt like we were cannon fodder.
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It's easy to get worn down and start thinking that way.
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Yeah... towards the end... I met someone else just like that...