🎧 homophonic | pcs | yukichi (fukuzawa)

[silicone]

There's no need to fear the past. The past is just a memory.

(in retrospect i regret my choice of filter name)

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[silicone]

I can feel that.

Can you tell me some?

[allmenare]

I'm older than you. We're in the middle of a life-or-death game. We're in the middle of a store.

[silicone]

Okay, so—one? Eh. Two, fair enough, but also, consider it stress relief.

Three? That one doesn't matter as much. There are places.

[allmenare]

Where? The park?

[He does not actually want to go to some secluded place and make out. He's just struggling to think of what place would be secluded enough.]

[silicone]

I meant here.

Like in a dressing room.

[ just... he laughs a little into his hand... amused. ]

[allmenare]

[Scandalous.]

That's still too public. I don't understand how anyone could do anything here, there's no real privacy.

[silicone]

They're very bold. Or have good timing.

[ he chuckles. ]

[allmenare]

Well. Good for them I suppose.

[He's still not going to kiss Eiden.]

[silicone]

[ he knows, and doesn't seem disappointed, happy to just laugh at the finality of the remark. ]

Don't worry, I'm not here to sell you on it.

[allmenare]

Good. Because I'm not interested.

[It's a lie, but he's lying for both of their sakes.]

[silicone]

[ it's a lie and he dislikes it that is all. ]

Of course.

[ he does Not Believe It. but he also shifts the conversation quickly back now. it's best not to touch this again for a little bit maybe? the uncertainty is trying to rear its ugly head again. ]

Well, if you want help when you do get a bed, like bringing it back or anything, let me know, I'll help. It's a pain to do it by yourself.

[allmenare]

I appreciate that.

[It IS a pain to do by yourself.]

I'll let you know if I manage to get one.

[silicone]

Since there are no beds... would you be averse to going to grab something to eat with me?

[allmenare]

...sure.

[What is there even to eat at Sears?]

[silicone]

[ the sears is in the mall, so eiden will take his hand and lead him out towards the diner that is also here. welcome to the weird mall liminal space of dysturbia. so he'll just take his hand without any kind of preamble and take him to top pate. it's just a little quaint diner where they can grab two seats wherever.

are you a booth or a counter kind of guy? ]

w2, friday

[silicone]

[ sorry, it's neither touch week nor is it red string week, and here is eiden just smacking straight into fukuzawa wherever he happens to be, wrapping his arms around his middle and shoving his face into his shoulder.

hi. there are only small rabbit-like pulses of fear and upset here, and he's attempting to smother it even as he's skipping breaths and clutching fukuzawa tightly. ]

[allmenare]

[Hi there.

As Eiden approached he would have felt a strong sense of anxiety and responsibility, along the lines of 'I have to do ANOTHER trial now'. But those emotions are pushed to the background as Eiden hugs him, and after a few moments he brings his arms around Eiden and hugs him in return.

Now what he feels is worry.]

[silicone]

[ eiden sinks into the embrace for a little longer, the emotion exuded is purely "get it together, get it together". eventually, his breathing slows, deepens a little bit at a time until finally he can feel that worry and shakes his head against his chest. ]

M'okay...

[ his voice is dull. ]

Found Buzen's body... [ it wobles ] in the cathedral...

[allmenare]

Oh, Eiden...

[Yeah, he'll squeeze him a little tighter after hearing that. Along with the worry is feelings of sadness too.]

[silicone]

[ the squeeze is nice. immediately he melts into it, just letting out a very long breath as he tries to compose himself. the pressure helps, and he stays there for a minute before finally lifting his head. ]

This really sucks...

[ he smiles. ]

I just wanted to see you.

[ his fingers cling to his clothes still. ]

[allmenare]

[He's not the best at emotional things but he's gotten better at giving hugs over the years. He'll give Eiden all the time he needs to feel better.]

Well, I'm right here.

[silicone]

[ he just nods quietly and stays close... sticky... ]

... Did you find anything...?

[allmenare]

Just that a bottle was missing, and whatever Rang and Gyuhyuk found.

[silicone]

A bottle... weird.

[ just... thunking his head a little against his shoulder for one moment ]

Week 2, Saturday

[allmenare]

[He keeps his calm composure all the way until they leave the McDonalds. But once he's free of all those people who had been driving his anxiety through the roof, he just sighs and leans against a brick wall. Instead of repressing himself further, he lets his emotions go and they become a loud cloud of squiggly lines and bad vibes.

Man. What a day.]