[ he shakes his head. ]

I don't want to be... I...

[ there's something very uncertain. ]

There are better things that anger right now... [ eiden feels like he doesn't believe himself when he says that, he is resolved. that, and the ache of sadness has swollen up between his ribs and made a home there. ]

If I start getting angry all the time... I might never stop. That's how it was when I was a kid. I can't go back to that.