Living alone is a skill, like running long distance or programming old computers. You have to know parameters, protocols. You have to learn them so well that they become like a language: to have music always so that the silence doesn't overwhelm you, to perform your work exquisitely well so that your time is filled.
You have to allow yourself to open up until you are the exact size of the place you live, no more or else you get restless. No less, or else you drown. There are rules; there are ways of being and not being.
8:20 AM

GAME 52
HIGH HAND
royal flush
straight flush
full house
flush
straight
LOW HAND
four of a kind
three of a kind
two pair
one pair
high card
HEARTS
TWO OF HEARTS: CHARACTER THREE OF HEARTS: FOUR OF HEARTS: FIVE OF HEARTS: SIX OF HEARTS: SEVEN OF HEARTS: EIGHT OF HEARTS: NINE OF HEARTS: TEN OF HEARTS: JACK OF HEARTS: QUEEN OF HEARTS: KING OF HEARTS: ACE OF HEARTS: DIAMONDS
TWO OF DIAMONDS: CHARACTER THREE OF DIAMONDS: FOUR OF DIAMONDS: FIVE OF DIAMONDS: SIX OF DIAMONDS: SEVEN OF DIAMONDS: EIGHT OF DIAMONDS: NINE OF DIAMONDS: TEN OF DIAMONDS: JACK OF DIAMONDS: QUEEN OF DIAMONDS: KING OF DIAMONDS: ACE OF DIAMONDS: SPADES
TWO OF SPADES: CHARACTER THREE OF SPADES: FOUR OF SPADES: FIVE OF SPADES: SIX OF SPADES: SEVEN OF SPADES: EIGHT OF SPADES: NINE OF SPADES: TEN OF SPADES: JACK OF SPADES: QUEEN OF SPADES: KING OF SPADES: ACE OF SPADES: CLUBS
TWO OF CLUBS: CHARACTER THREE OF CLUBS: FOUR OF CLUBS: FIVE OF CLUBS: SIX OF CLUBS: SEVEN OF CLUBS: EIGHT OF CLUBS: NINE OF CLUBS: TEN OF CLUBS: JACK OF CLUBS: QUEEN OF CLUBS: KING OF CLUBS: ACE OF CLUBS: